Champagne Wishes/Caviar Dreams

 I think that everything is going to work out fine for the greater good and all of that but not getting too deep and philosophical I would like to say that I am  ready to explore a much better life. Anyway, though my life is at the corner stone of cooking and as I was flipping through the channels before five thirty this morning I came across a rare treat. Would you like to know what it is? Well it is one my favorite movies introduced to me by my mother when I was still yet a child and when I was still innocent about many ways of the world. You guessed it I found one of my favorite movies the classic movie AUNTIE MAIME 😁🤭 The funniest part of the whole movie is that horse riding scene. Classic literature and classic film is really a rare treat that we should never take for granted because the arts are so very important. I didn't have any idea what I was going to cook when I got out of the hospital for my first celebration dinner and I am thinking Indian food in honor of one ...

 So listen, bitch I will be in the hospital for the next 6 days ugh ugh ugh!!!!!!!! Oh man I am so pissed then to top it all off y'all I was hoping to go home tomorrow omg I am so miserable. I really wish that I could refuse care but these bitches are watching like a hawk and on top of it all some lights just got clicked off here in the hospital at the nurses station. I keep thinking about singing Christmas carol's and spreading holiday cheer but I haven't made merry since I was a little girl. Like it is so hard to even feel happy this year but I guess it is worth a try this year I guess it is important this year. I really need to work on my patience, yo like for real and I really want to get back to my cooking I miss it so much. Honestly, I just feel like because I'm so subtle with the way I express myself and my talents that I am constantly overlooked and disregarded as an old reliable character. And I hate that because just because it isn't all in your face and I...

 I have been suffering from Pneumonia for the past three days in the hospital, and I am so irritated even though these nurses here at Orlando Health are fucking Allstars. I did initially think that the nurses here were a little questionable but I really do adore them so very much everyone has been kind to me. I long to entertain family and friends at a nice Christmas party, new year's party, and new year's eve party or something like that. Thinking back over my life I have never had time to stop and smell the roses in my life which really pisses me off. So my first goal when I get out of the hospital is to start cooking more complex yet simple gourmet foods. Also, I recently talked to my sister and we had a great conversation about me getting better and my healing from the inside. I usually don't participate in the days of Christmas but I feel very differently this year and I would love to make a drastic change in my life so that I can improve. I really love gourmet food, b...

 😆 So, my dumb ass misspelled the word caviar but I don't feel stupid because I heard that it doesn't taste that great anyway. I have been cooking all my life literally since age 14 I mean like I am literally fucking exhausted from cooking all the time. This is so crazy but I still want to fucking cook I really don't know what is wrong with me an old friend of mine really wanted me to stop wanting a better life for myself. Unfortunately, I had to cut that friend loose I am currently in the hospital, yes the fucking hospital and I am doing my best to get well. Being in a relationship is very hard sometimes especially when you are in the hospital and I have tried to get over my procrastination crap for several years now. I don't know what it is about 30 years of age but for me, it is the age of the rebirth of my whole life, and I intend to live the the rest of my life to the fullest.