Ugh fuck!!!!!

 So listen, bitch I will be in the hospital for the next 6 days ugh ugh ugh!!!!!!!! Oh man I am so pissed then to top it all off y'all I was hoping to go home tomorrow omg I am so miserable.

I really wish that I could refuse care but these bitches are watching like a hawk and on top of it all some lights just got clicked off here in the hospital at the nurses station.

I keep thinking about singing Christmas carol's and spreading holiday cheer but I haven't made merry since I was a little girl.

Like it is so hard to even feel happy this year but I guess it is worth a try this year I guess it is important this year.

I really need to work on my patience, yo like for real and I really want to get back to my cooking I miss it so much.

Honestly, I just feel like because I'm so subtle with the way I express myself and my talents that I am constantly overlooked and disregarded as an old reliable character.

And I hate that because just because it isn't all in your face and I am not begging to be noticed by you doesn't mean that I am invalid, like fuck I have feelings too you know...

Anyways, I do my best each and every day so don't invalidate me in any way please and don't think I will always be there because I won't be.


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